incoherence, at its best

so it's been awhile :)

If you think about it, life is many sorts of great splendour. It is merely a series of sudoku - some easy, some intermediate, and most of them very, very hard. But point is, there's always a way out of any sticky situation; time, being the varying factor.

but in all seriousness though, amidst all that beauty and positivity, life is really a fucked-up weave of intricacies, with dead knots up the wazoo. if you are a realist, please put your hand up and please agree.

my view of the world has changed. from a constricted, naive view to one that is more appreciative of its vastness and possibilities. i have seen greater good, as well as greater evil. miracles do happen, but not to me. well of course i see rainbows, shooting stars and kangaroos (the baby pocket STILL amazes me) now and again, but that is really the extent of it.

no, i don't need to take life a little less seriously guys. the last time i did, my world almost turned upside down. i can't afford to be careless anymore.

there's been a thought engulfing my mind for awhile now, that only now i have the courage to say. i... am a coward. i have been living with the bad choices i made, afraid to rectify coz i believe it's too late.

my girlfriends are my backbone, my oxygen, my caffee latte. the rest are just accessories - nice to have. 'Your friends are your religion', so i've heard a few times lately. A saying i carry through the day.

see, some people sit and wonder, in excitement or in fear, how their future would pan out, and if it at all is any close to how they planned it to be? but i, i don't sit and wonder. i know what my future is gonna be like. i can see how it will unfold. the bigger question remains, do i want this life? is this the best that life can offer?